One lesson.
That finally made sense over the 1000's of times I said it within my own head, was that you are alone. If you wait around for someone to come and fix you and help you progress, you are bound to fail. It's almost like social physics. You have to take your own life into your own hands and mold your own future. Now whoever may or may not read this will say duh I always do me, I don't need nobody and blah blah. That is merely a self inflated version of yourself because the day you have no man/woman, and no friends; is the day you wallow in your own misery and play the pity game till someone comes and saves you. So cut the shit. We all talk it, but now I'm about it. Far beyond retail wages and Jc classes. I feel as if I've transcended all my previous distractions to the point of me even saying shit I've thought for years. I don't care anymore, and I can actually say I really fucking mean it. There has been so many lies and deceit pouring from me and my friends and my woman; I'm over it. I won't be apart of it, so in part, I am no longer a part of them. It'll take a while for people to choke down that rough bit of information, but I think that was my first step in realizing through unfazed eyes, how big of a set back it all was. People think you don't know shit when you're really too appalled to actually check it all as immediately as it happens. You hang around people who wait for their "Big Break", and you yourself will be stuck in the lethargic state of non-movement. In real life, the early bird gets the worm so you can catch me up at 6 to get to school, followed by my internship. I know what I want to do, I have the means to do it, I was just stuck with people who weren't in the same boat so I never truly realized all the resources III possessed.
Basically, this is a big "Fuck You" letter. In the most literal of senses.
