Normal to Natural

All I've been striving for is a sense of normality in these past couple of weeks. This is my biggest fault. I've concerned myself soo much on things going back to normal, I overlooked being natural. Not second guessing my opinions or thoughts and experiencing the moment. For me, insanity is super sanity. The normal is psychotic. Normal means lack of imagination, lack of creativity. My present situation will no longer get in the way of my purpose. Thinking about my obsession for normality makes me feel foolish for the stress I put you through in not caring what you were saying. God I really did miss everything this comes with. Our beauty was in our natural behavior, nothing thought out, nothing planned, just everything worked as it should. Now if I could just get my money straight eeeverything will be running as smoothly as it should.